~whitefangkiba

what I'm up to
..new drawings soon to come maybe idk :/.... I'm starting to write more of that story that no one seemed to read (thanks ppl who DID read it) and yeah..... idk school fucking sucks and I just... *sigh*
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Venting to all! Deal with it!!!!
to you ppl who think I want attention cause I'm depressed...-.- I know I am depressed alot and I know I got fucking problems so don't even fucking say I'm wanting attention because for how much I care you ppl who think I want attention can fucking die and have your soul ripped slowly and painfully apart -.- I just am depressed okay get over your fucking selves cause I don't want attention... cause you fucking ppl asked 'how are you?' so I told you! and don't even fucking get me started on when you ppl say 'what's wrong?' and I say "I don't really wanna talk about it" WHY IN THE FUCK WOULD I TELL SOMEONE I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT'S WRONG!!!! omfg -.- if I'm gonna talk to someone it's going to be with a best friend I trust dearly.... so yeah this was venting pretty much -.-
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VENTING about rl! DEAL WITH IT!!!
if one more person bothers me about always wearing black I am going to stab them till I feel better and that means there wont be alot left of the person when i get done! -.- and I'm not fucking emo or goth! -.- I'm just depressed and wear black alot... that doesn't make me goth or emo! -.- grrrrrrrrr and if this boy in school talks to me one more time I am going to shove him in my locker and beat him up till he is a bloody mess! I will kill that mofo!! -.-
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VENTING about dA! DEAL WITH IT!!!
I don't know if I can trust to many ppl on here... I cought a few ppl in lies and I can't stand it when someone lies to me... and I idk why but I went into the chats a couple times and It seemed no matter how hard I tried to make everyone happy things got all DRAMATIC! god fucking damn it I hate drama... If I want drama I'll read a damn book or just fucking look at my own life and hate myself! so there... grr... AND FOR THOSE who have lied to me sorry but I hate you right now cause there is no point and plz if you have lied to me come out and tell me you lied! my friend Alex told me he lied to me and told me what he lied about and I'm still friends with him! It's just if you don't tell me you lied I'll never trust you... cause I know who has lied to me... I'm smarter then ppl think I am.... so be a true friend and tell me you lied so you can regain my trust and be a good friend.... all I have to say...
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INFO! on venting! I vent on dA cause I have no where else to go... and I can't bottle it up anymore cause if I bottle it up I cut so if I vent it helps not make me cut or try anything umm... you get what I'm talking about.......
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me, myself. and I
my head is really really really really really really really really really really mixed up....
Emotion scale

school = stress, depression, nervous, and anger

home = more stress, depression, anger, more anger, thoughts, and just shit

friends = stress, depression, anger, and just mixed up thoughts

best friends = gilt, nervous, and I just feel bad...

bestest best friends = more gilt and I just don't know how to talk to them

one person not telling who = makes me happy and I wanna tell the person everything but I seem to get embarrassed and shy and worried about what they might think then I get quiet T____T then I get mad at myself cause I can't tell um then it's like "Kiba you dumb bitch why can't you tell um you trust um so much!!!! you fucking pussy!" and then I feel bad -.-
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I think I'm done talking and venting :/ if you read all this BRAVO! I clap for you! and I am soooooooooooo sorry to have wasted your time but I needed to vent badly and I still do! but I will just take it out on my arm that's already hurting like hell T__T so yeah sorry for wasting your time